miss miss miss you

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too tough for him,
I say, stay in there, I'm not going
to let anybody see
you.

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I pour whiskey on him and inhale
cigarette smoke
and the whores and the bartenders
and the grocery clerks
never know that
he's
in there.

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too tough for him,
I say,
stay down, do you want to mess
me up?
you want to screw up the
works?
you want to blow my book sales in
Europe?

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too clever, I only let him out
at night sometimes
when everybody's asleep.
I say, I know that you're there,
so don't be
sad.
then I put him back,
but he's singing a little
in there, I haven't quite let him
die
and we sleep together like
that
with our
secret pact
and it's nice enough to
make a man
weep, but I don't
weep, do
you?

seaweeds.

the currents pull me in the tide has reached my chin the seaweed tickles skin just let the water win
I'm freezing to the bone.

would you like to run away and try to forget?

We're finally drunk enough that, we're finally soaking up, the hours that everyone else throws away.
And if we have to go now, I guess there's always hope, tomorrow night will be more of the same.

This night is winding down but time means nothing, as always at this hour
Time means nothing, one final final round cos time means nothing,
Say that you'll stay.

all i could do is put a seashell to your ear

making pictures is a kind of gentle hunt to find all the things i tucked away in that endless vast mansion i call my subconscious. i am just going around turning on all the lights in all the rooms and helping those memories to be their best and be calm and happy.

tired.

so how much difference could it possibly make, yah, how much effort could it possibly take to save me from sailing over the edge?


the mirrors images manipulating my thought, lost in the dark...searching for a light but only darkness comes. i feel your presence but we both know you're not really there. oh, how i miss you.  if i could see you once more even only if in my slumber... we were cheated. 

there is a hole in my heart.  i want to be whole.


happiness comes and goes so quickly. i haven't been living. i'm just doing. i miss your enthusiasm. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. first things first, one thing at a time. i wish i could hear you again. i wish you were here again.